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I miss blogging. like seriously. Too many stuff to do. So many things I want to write in this blog. I want to tell you guys everything.

EVERYTHING.

But now I need to dedicate my time studying *Obviously and sleeping.
Sleeping is important to me these days.

aisyhhh.

I need to stop stalking. The more I stalk you the more I realize we live in a two different worlds.

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Anyway. Bye.

God. I miss writing.

Crushes are fun

This is not my post. I repeat THIS IS NOT MY POST.

I just read it at thought catalog and thinking this article is beautifully written as it truly explains what I really feel.

Enjoy!

Link for the article.  http://thoughtcatalog.com/2013/crushes-are-fun/


Crushes are fun. The experience of being attracted to someone and then finding ways to get to know them is a small but gratifying sentiment. It’s like childhood – it’s innocent, it’s silly but in a good way, and maybe it’s a reminder that you’ll never lose your youthful enthusiasm. And whether the crush is someone you never knew or someone with whom you’re familiar, all of a sudden this person takes on a whole new meaning.



You begin to notice the way they do everything. You memorize their features, you remember every conversation, every gaze, and every time your eyes meet. And now you’re smiling when you think of them. When they’re around, you feel butterflies, and somehow you manage to keep your eyes on them without ever quite being able to look at them straight in the eye. And you wonder how they could not possibly get it – you so obviously have a crush.



You begin to imagine what it’d be like if they were more than your crush. You start thinking of a million ways you could reveal how much you’re growing to like them. And you begin to realize that this crush of yours is becoming more than what it was intended. You’re developing feelings, feelings that were not intended, and feelings that shouldn’t be real because it was only supposed to be a crush.



Now you’re serious and you’re getting emotionally invested. You tell everyone otherwise and that it’s just a minor attraction but deep down inside, you know that’s a lie. You know that what was supposed to be childlike affection has become a fixation and it feels like you’re making afool out of yourself to get their attention. And when you don’t get it, you wonder if it’s something about you – something about you and your flaws.



So you begin to feel fifteen again and you’re wondering why this crush is starting to hurt as much as they did back then. You’re older, you’re wiser, you’ve got more experience now and you know that feelings aren’t always reciprocated; you know this better than anyone. So, there’s no reason to get upset but you can’t help it. It feels like once again, your crush has left you feeling crushed.



Crushes are fun. Or at least they’re supposed to be fun as long as you keep them that way. As long as you don’t get emotionally invested or fixated or keep imagining your reality to be what it is not – crushes are fun. But if you expect too much or feel too easily, you might end up with self-inflicted heart ache which just leaves you feeling empty-handed or just plain empty. And all of this for someone who never even promised you anything from the start.

Tom Hanks and High School Sweet Heart

Tom Hanks, one of my favourite actors. One of my high school sweet hearts. See him on TV again (they play Forrest Gump last Sunday), makes me happy. Making me remember all my favourite movie with him in it. You’ve got mail, Sleepless in Seattle and The Terminal. They play these movies again and again on TV while I was in High School. So you can say I have a ‘thing’ for Tom Hanks after all.

For me, old movies have ‘soul’ in it which nowadays movies seem to lack of. Even if they were to play all old Tom Hanks movies on TV I would watch them all over again and again and again. (You get the idea, right?).

I bet that some of us have certain attachment towards the movie that we like. Even if we have watched that movie for a thousand times, we would watch them all over again if they were play on TV and remember what happen next after our favourite scene and even can memorize the dialogue and even try to mimic the way the character said the dialogue!. (This part reminds me of Suits)

For some of us, especially the girls (ehemm), we have a thing for the hero. The hero of our favourite movie will be our eternal love or in my case my high school sweet heart (since they play Tom Hanks movie while I was in high school). My high school sweet heart does not consist of Tom Hanks alone; I have a list for High School Sweet Heart.  A LIST. The list also consist of Chad Michael Murray for A Cinderella Story & Of course One Tree Hill, Ekin Cheng for Storm Riders, That guy from Para para sakura and the list goes on and on and on and on……

My list of high school sweet hearts will become immortal in their movies. No matter how old they are now (Obviously they are now) , in my memory they will stop aging at my favourite movies. So don’t give me that look if I were screaming and drooling to watch a new movie starring the old & wrinkle Tom Hanks, as for me he will always look good as he is in You’ve Got Mail. J