Busy Bee

Hi and Hello

I miss blogging. like seriously. Too many stuff to do. So many things I want to write in this blog. I want to tell you guys everything.

EVERYTHING.

But now I need to dedicate my time studying *Obviously and sleeping.
Sleeping is important to me these days.

aisyhhh.

I need to stop stalking. The more I stalk you the more I realize we live in a two different worlds.

Sorry. Grammar terabur.

Anyway. Bye.

God. I miss writing.

Crushes are fun

This is not my post. I repeat THIS IS NOT MY POST.

I just read it at thought catalog and thinking this article is beautifully written as it truly explains what I really feel.

Enjoy!

Link for the article.  http://thoughtcatalog.com/2013/crushes-are-fun/


Crushes are fun. The experience of being attracted to someone and then finding ways to get to know them is a small but gratifying sentiment. It’s like childhood – it’s innocent, it’s silly but in a good way, and maybe it’s a reminder that you’ll never lose your youthful enthusiasm. And whether the crush is someone you never knew or someone with whom you’re familiar, all of a sudden this person takes on a whole new meaning.



You begin to notice the way they do everything. You memorize their features, you remember every conversation, every gaze, and every time your eyes meet. And now you’re smiling when you think of them. When they’re around, you feel butterflies, and somehow you manage to keep your eyes on them without ever quite being able to look at them straight in the eye. And you wonder how they could not possibly get it – you so obviously have a crush.



You begin to imagine what it’d be like if they were more than your crush. You start thinking of a million ways you could reveal how much you’re growing to like them. And you begin to realize that this crush of yours is becoming more than what it was intended. You’re developing feelings, feelings that were not intended, and feelings that shouldn’t be real because it was only supposed to be a crush.



Now you’re serious and you’re getting emotionally invested. You tell everyone otherwise and that it’s just a minor attraction but deep down inside, you know that’s a lie. You know that what was supposed to be childlike affection has become a fixation and it feels like you’re making afool out of yourself to get their attention. And when you don’t get it, you wonder if it’s something about you – something about you and your flaws.



So you begin to feel fifteen again and you’re wondering why this crush is starting to hurt as much as they did back then. You’re older, you’re wiser, you’ve got more experience now and you know that feelings aren’t always reciprocated; you know this better than anyone. So, there’s no reason to get upset but you can’t help it. It feels like once again, your crush has left you feeling crushed.



Crushes are fun. Or at least they’re supposed to be fun as long as you keep them that way. As long as you don’t get emotionally invested or fixated or keep imagining your reality to be what it is not – crushes are fun. But if you expect too much or feel too easily, you might end up with self-inflicted heart ache which just leaves you feeling empty-handed or just plain empty. And all of this for someone who never even promised you anything from the start.

Tom Hanks and High School Sweet Heart

Tom Hanks, one of my favourite actors. One of my high school sweet hearts. See him on TV again (they play Forrest Gump last Sunday), makes me happy. Making me remember all my favourite movie with him in it. You’ve got mail, Sleepless in Seattle and The Terminal. They play these movies again and again on TV while I was in High School. So you can say I have a ‘thing’ for Tom Hanks after all.

For me, old movies have ‘soul’ in it which nowadays movies seem to lack of. Even if they were to play all old Tom Hanks movies on TV I would watch them all over again and again and again. (You get the idea, right?).

I bet that some of us have certain attachment towards the movie that we like. Even if we have watched that movie for a thousand times, we would watch them all over again if they were play on TV and remember what happen next after our favourite scene and even can memorize the dialogue and even try to mimic the way the character said the dialogue!. (This part reminds me of Suits)

For some of us, especially the girls (ehemm), we have a thing for the hero. The hero of our favourite movie will be our eternal love or in my case my high school sweet heart (since they play Tom Hanks movie while I was in high school). My high school sweet heart does not consist of Tom Hanks alone; I have a list for High School Sweet Heart.  A LIST. The list also consist of Chad Michael Murray for A Cinderella Story & Of course One Tree Hill, Ekin Cheng for Storm Riders, That guy from Para para sakura and the list goes on and on and on and on……

My list of high school sweet hearts will become immortal in their movies. No matter how old they are now (Obviously they are now) , in my memory they will stop aging at my favourite movies. So don’t give me that look if I were screaming and drooling to watch a new movie starring the old & wrinkle Tom Hanks, as for me he will always look good as he is in You’ve Got Mail. J

Weird Dream

I've a hard time falling asleep last night. As I struggle finally I manage to fall asleep and landing myself in a weird dream.

Very weird.

I'm in a classroom in my school uniform with a bunch of my classmates.
Feels like reunion. *Ughh I hate reunion.
I saw some familiar faces there.
Somehow all the familiar faces make me comfortable.

We all laugh together.
Share our jokes, our stories.
Catching up with each others lives.

Then I saw YOU.
Feels like my heart going to explode at that time but I kept my face straight.
Make happy faces as we talk about each other lives and wish each other well for future undertakings.

I lied to myself at that time.
All I ever want just to say how sorry I am for not being able to accept you.
Sorry and thank you for all the attention.
Sorry because I cannot reply the exact feeling to you.









But sometimes I caught myself looking at your profile.




I am weird.

High School Crush

High school crush. Siapa yang tak pernah ada crush time sekolah dulu-dulu. Tipu la kalau takdek. Kalau takde korang memang rugi sebab dah hilang salah satu nikmat mase sekolah. Huahahaha *Gelak jahat.

Okay, okay. Chill chill. Jangan nak mengamuk.

Crush. Tulis dan sebut jek hati dah berbunga-bunga.

Apakah sebenarnya perasaan crush tu?

Rasa kalau nampak dia dalam lautan manusia tu tiba-tiba dia sorang jek yang bercahaya. Rasa kalau nampak dia untuk hari tu, rasa macam hari tu dah complete. No one can dare to make it a bad day for you. Walaupun orang ramai kata crush kau tu tak hensem, selekeh, pemalas, baju tak gosok, kau still akan pandang dia perfect jek. Kalau hari tu tiba-tiba terjumpa pakai pulak baju kaler sama. Gila bahagianya perasaan haritu. Tuhan jek yang tahu. Kalau lame dah tak jumpa tiba-tiba crush kau like status kat fb rase macam nak terbang jek naik ke langit.

Hehehehehehe *Senyum.

Kadang-kadang crush ni bagus jugak. Dia macam bagi semangat sikit nak belajar. Tak taw la kalau effect dia lain pulak kat orang lain kan. Cuba kalau kau ade crush dekat seseorang tu. Seseorang tu top student. Kau pulak study biasa-biasa jek. Lulus lulus kalau fail nangis. So secara tak langsung sebab tak nak malu dengan crush, kau study elok-elok biar dia nampak kau pandai sikit tak macam perempuan-perempuan lain kat luar tu. Nampak tak saham dah naik kat situ.

Tapi tiba-tiba ade benda ni.

 Oh please at the age of 23 can I still have a crush on someone. But please out out from my head. Penat nak melayan perasaan. Penat nak berangan. Penat nak membayangkan impian yang tak akan jadi kenyataan.

Btw, my high school crush died a long time a go. I grow up.

Is this true?

Cepat mengaku.

-____-''

Desperate gilaaaaa.

Reasons why I love Suits

I've been spending my holiday currently drooling over hot lawyer who wear SUITS. This series is so good. You guys should check it out and after that your mind will be filled with nothing but Harvey and Mike! (that's what happen to me exactly ) :)

Reasons why I cannot stop watching this series:

1. They got not only one but TWO handsomish and cutish lead actors. Who can resist Harvey sharp tongue and Mike Ross photoghrapic memories. Awww they so adorable together.

2. They like to quote from a movie. Each character seems like to know what movie they are referring to. Except I have no idea what they are just saying. But seriously watching them quoting and finishing each other sentences is just so damn cool.

3. They've got cool Opening Song.


4. I've got to add up my english vocab everyday. Most of them revolve around lawyer language.

5. This show is just amazing!! :)

Random Colours

Currently sitting at my room balcony enjoying the rain *not so much of the thunder. I hate thunder. Who doesn't get scared of thunder and lighting. At the sight of thunder I quickly run and hide under my blanket. My safe space.

Yes, before this I wrote that I was hoping in some way that I will help to inspire people by my writing. I don't know what kind of my writing that will inspire people but today I just want to talk about my obsession with colours. ESPECIALLY the bright ones! :)

If you guys have known me in real life I'm the kind of girl that like to play with colours for my wardrobe. Sometimes I'm just to lazy to choose whether this cloth looks good together with this cardi or tudung then I will wear whatever things that my hand can reach hence every now and then I'll be called traffic light!.

Yes, I'm so proud of that. :)

There are times that I will google my favourite colour and drool to find awesome tops with my favourite colour in it!. Happy happy me. Yet better do this alone when no one else is looking otherwise people might call me crazy.

P/s

On growing up

I realized that cutting people from my life does not mean I hate them, it simply means, I respect me.

                                                                                                                         Unknown



My thoughts on getting older. As you get older you will know who is your real friends are. Sometimes there are some people that we need to cut loose in order for us to grow. Even though this type of person used to be your friends. Respect and love yourself enough to get away with this kind of ''friends''. They're not your real friends.

Fresh Start

I've been delaying to create myself a new blog. Yes, I promise myself and you guys whoever is still interested in stalking my thoughts to continue to read it here!. A new place, a new blog with nothing in it except for this post. Yeah, mmm okay.

For the past few months of not writing in a blog, I myself have gone through tons of blogs. I read them for pleasure. There are so many blogs out there that inspire you to be a better person each day, blogs with full of positive thoughts and blogs that full with everyday things but is still enjoyable to read. I hope that I'll be able to write like them  one day.

As usual since my passions are anime, drama series, musics, books and etc sometimes you guys might come across my blog post ranting about all of this things. It is normal for a human to talk about what they like and what they don't like. I also might talk about boring stuff as a student life. I might be MIA just like before if I run out of ideas or just simply do not want to write just like in my blog before.

So yeah, why the new blog then?

Simple, I just want a fresh start.

The name of the blog is still temporary. I still have no idea on naming this blog.